Is there anything other than a few extra pounds that makes losing feel like winning?? When the scales say I've lost a little, I feel like the biggest winner! I bounce! When its the opposite, I berate myself, I feel like eating more... and so the cycle goes.
The pain I had in my upper back after losing 20 kgs. and the unbalanced feeling, are gone. The remaining fat has redistributed, and I feel fat again. I always feel scared that I will just put all the weight back on, after working SOOOOO hard to get it off. But not scared enough to counter the nibblies late in the afternoons.
I had 4 different meals in a week that had a little rice with them - Indian, Thai, and Sushi. And I gained over a kg. It seems carbs are the enemy. Rice, bread, root vegetables, sugar - they are all so hard to avoid, especially when we eat out so much. Yes, I am struggling. I do so much better when I'm on a program and I know exactly what I can and cannot eat. Making choices is HARD!
Sunday, April 1, 2012
I'd like to think that I can eat anything and my body knows what weight its suppose to be and stay there....but its just not so. I had hoped that bread and sweets wouldn't be attractive anymore... but Nope! they still taste good!
If I don't keep track of this crochet pattern, it won't work out....always counting - continually keeping track.So... the party's over! I must be more conscious of what goes in 'cause it wants to stay there! and its spoiling the pattern!!
at 3:55 PM